标题：第39期:塞尔

内容：
SireI dont remember when I first noticed him looking at me-Sire.

But I knew he was looking.

Every time.

All the time I walked past his house.

Him and his friends sitting on their bikes in front of the house, pitching pennies.

They didnt scare me.

They did, but I wouldnt let them know.

I dont cross the street like other girls.

Straight ahead, straight eyes.

I walked past.

I knew he was looking.

I had to prove to me I wasnt scared of nobodys eyes, not even his.

I had to look back hard, just once, like he was glass.

And I did.

I did once.

But I looked too long when he rode his bike past me.

I looked because I wanted to be brave, straight into he dusty cat fur of his eyes and the bike stopped and he bumped into a parked car, bumped, and I walked fast.

It made your blood freeze to have somebody look at you like that.

Somebody looked at me.

Somebody looked.

But his kind, his ways.

He is a punk, Papa says, and Mama says not to talk to him.

塞尔我不记得什么时候期，发觉他在看我，塞尔。

可我知道他在看。

每次。

我从他家房前走过时，他一直在看。

他和他的朋友在房子前，坐在自行车上抛硬 币。

他们没吓我。

他们吓着我了，可我不会让他们知道。

我不像别的女孩那样过街。

我走了过去，笔直向前，笔直的视线。

我知道他在看。

我要想自己证明，我不害 怕任何人的眼睛，即便是他的。

我要回头用力看，就一眼，当他是块玻璃。

于是我那么做了。

我看了一眼，可我看的太久，在他骑过身边的时候，我看是因为我想勇敢些，一直看到他看见上灰蒙蒙的毛毛里去。

自行车停下来，撞在一辆停着的小汽车上，撞到了，我于是飞快的走开。

有人那样看你会让你的血结冰。

有人看我，有 人看。

可是他是那样的人，他那样看。

他是个小混混。

爸爸说。

别和他说话，妈妈说。

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